I’ve got 6 other people asking me the same thing haha!
I’m not gonna say much what happened, but it went REALLY well. Instead of a few hours, this really warranted the whole day, even though I had to ‘call in sick’ to work for the evening shift, it was worth it to see my friend actually happy [especially when we baked cup cakes together, haha]. I can be happy to confidently say that it’s the first I’ve seen her since we broke up and NOT want to get back with her… Not now anyway. Maybe in a few years when we’ve both COMPLETELY got over each other, the scars we both have heal and then we can get to know each other again… And that’s IF all my attempts with Amanda Seyfried [Plan B] fail! =P
What I’m focusing though is that I helped a friend in need. She needed someone when she was in the same dark place I was in 7 months ago and even though I can’t get her out of it, because I NEED to get on with my own life, I gave her the tools and advice to her her move on and get on with her life.
I will always have a flame for her and if she needs me she can text me, email me, youtube me, anonymously ask me a question on here, ANYTHING. I may not contact her but that’s because I have my ways of getting on with life, but she still has me. If she needs me I’LL BE THERE. She’s my best friend and I’ll never abandon her no matter what happened between us.
If I said it once I’ve said it a thousand times, she’s my best friend first and an ex girlfriend second. My door will always be open to her. Before you ask, cause I know one of you anons will, am I still in love with her? I DON’T KNOW. Whatever feelings I had for her I locked up tight and put to the bottom of my heart where STILL they lay, ignored and silent. I could want to love her and be with her, or I could want to shoot her in the face [haha sorry Lottie]. What I do know is that I helped my best friend start to get back to who she used to be, before we broke up, heck, even before she met me.
She’s gonna get better and I’m so proud of her… Lottie will always be my best friend, whether we see each other again [which I would like once we both heal a little bit more… But that may take a further 7 months!] or we get back together [But I got the same chances with Miss Seyfried =p] she will ALWAYS be my Bunni.
I’m happy that we had today. At least now we have some closure and now I know that she will be happy. I hope she will.
Lottie, if you’re reading this… Haha, I know you are [you stalker! =p] I hope you follow my advice and get better and maybe one day, whether we see each other or not, whether we’re together again or not, not matter what happens we can both be happy [or CONTENT in my case], whether it be nursing animals or making films. I miss you Bunni. I always will and I wish you all the best.
Now kids. Let’s get back to the really issue on my blog. HOW AWESOME IS HALO 4 GONNA BE!!!!