NERD CORE FOR LIFE
Awwww yeah.

Awwww yeah.





I’m so hungry, so drunk and so alone.

I want someone to cook for me, hold me and tell me everything’s going to be all right.




I wish I had a girlfriend… Not even a girlfriend, just someone to snuggle with.

After such a brilliant home cooked meal, I feel, well, unfinished. I just want someone other than me to enjoy the meal and furthermore to hold…

I’m so lonely… I just… Ugh… I just want someone with me tonight =/


Can I have a girlfriend please?

  • Likes the occasional video game.
  • Likes Star Wars over Star Trek [But I’m not really fussy…]
  • Likes to eat and doesn’t worry about calories or anything like that.
  • Likes to lie in bed and watch tv shows on their laptops.
  • Likes long walks and pointless discussions about the purpose of the duck billed platypus. 
  • Doesn’t mind my eczema.
  • Doesn’t mind my past.
  • Doesn’t mind me.
  • Could love me…

I’m asking for too much with those last two aren’t I?

  • EDIT & ADDITION: Doesn’t mind a little rough and crazy sex.

I really am asking a lot now…


I’m alone. I haven’t been invited to anything. I’m in a crappy mood. I feel so fucking lonelily. I’m pretty fucking ugly and thus seen as UNTOUCHABLE by every girl I know…

It’s times like these I find that I miss whoever she was. I think I miss her a tiny bit more than I want to kill her.

I still fucking hate her though. Blond scouse twat.



I’m bored. Let’s do a survey.

This is majorly personal, you ready?
Nope.

Who were the last two girls you texted?
My mates Charlie and Rachel.

Do they mean anything to you?
Charlie’s a good friend and Rachel is also a good and friend and I have a little crush on her =/

Do you remember the last boy you texted?
My housemate Tom

What was it about?
Drunkenly asking him if he was in the house. 

What did you do last night?
Watched a horror film with my housemate Dan.

Look in your call log, who was your last missed call?
A random number. Probably asking me if I want PPI or a bag of chips or something.

Does anything on your body hurt right now?
My feet. Wearing in new shoes.

Are you racist?
No. But I say racist things. Ooops…

Are you self conscious?
Oh GOD yes.

Has anyone told you they loved you today?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! No one’s said that to me in a loooooooong time. I’m a very ugly person.

What are you wearing this very second?
Jeans, a shirt and an Alice Cooper T-shirt.

In the last 6 months can you say you truly cared about someone?
Yes… Unfortunately for me. When I care about someone I usually get shit on.

Could you handle living together with the last person who texted you?
Charlie? Oh yeah, it would be fucking fun as shit! XD

Ever been called babe/baby?
Yeah… I scowled at her for it and it was never said again.

Say you were given an alcohol test right now, would you pass?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH! NOPE!

Last song you heard?
I’ve Been Loving You Too Long (to Stop Now) - Cat Power

Last long car ride?
From Wiltshire to Trowbridge I suppose.

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
Probably never. No seriously. Probably never. No seriously. It’s… Ugh… It’s complicated . UGGGGH!

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year?
I’ve changed over the past few weeks.

Did you see your bestfriend today?
No. =[

Are you in a relationship right now?
AHAHAHAHAHA! AHAHAH! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! AAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Would you care if you saw a person you like, kissing someone else?
I’d probably stab myself in the leg with a fork so I wouldn’t have to think about it. So yeah, I’d probably be a bit peeved. 

Do you like someone?
Can’t you tell?

Did you wake up before 8am this morning?
No.

Do you wear Eyeliner?
Depends on the outfit I’m wearing. And on whether or not I remembered to put on my penis

Is something bothering you?
Something is ALWAYS bothering me.

When was the last time you smiled?
Today. PROPERLY and TRULY, I’d say last week…

How late did you stay up last night and why?
3 am. I can’t sleep. Too many thoughts.

Do you think dances (prom, homecoming,etc) are fun or lame?
Lame.

Do you wear pants or skirts more often?
IT’S CALLED A KILT!!!

If you wear skirts, are you more likely to wear leggings, or go bare?
IT’S CALLED A… *sigh* I go bare. ALL THE WAY bare.

Are you online 24/7?
Yeah.

Do you like painting?
Yes, but I haven’t done in YEARS.

Are you addicted to texting?
God no. How can you be addicted to texting?

Do you have a favorite aunt or uncle?
Not really. They’re all pretty awesome.

Are you wearing anything borrowed from a friend?
Nope, but the Alice Cooper T-shirt was my mum’s from the 80’s.

What would happen if you found out you were being cheated on right now?
I’m single so I don’t need to answer this.

Are you an outgoing person, or are you more reserved?
Depends on the situation, the people, how much money I have and what I’ll get out of it.

Did you do anything exciting today?
Drink. Make chocolate pretzels. Talk to my crush. Well that was exciting at first but then, then I ran out of things to say so then I smoked and hoped she’d be offline by the time I got back…

Have you ever had to spend the night at a hospital?
Yep.

Are you currently trying to get over someone?
Yep. I didn’t even get under them!

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
MILK.

Is there anyone that text messages you and you smile instantly?
Yeah. Rachel =].

Do you follow your head or your heart?
My heart. My heart’s a douchbag.

Do you believe in the saying “what goes around comes around?”
Oh yes. I’m hoping my ex will get ran over any day now.

If you are up after 3 am, what are you most likely doing?
Watching youtube videos.

Whose hoodie or jacket did you wear last that wasn’t yours?
I dunno. I picked it up by accident and I didn’t realise it wasn’t mine till I put my hands in the pockets.

Someone tells you that you’re beautiful. What do you say?
“Shut up!”

Do you usually listen to your friends when they say a boy or girl is bad for you?
No. But then again, I usually don’t do anything about said girl.

What would you say if someone told you they were in love with your brother?
“Why the fuck you telling me?!?”

Are you texting the last female/male you cuddled with?
No. 

Are you happier now than you were two months ago?
Not happier. But I am ‘better’.

If you woke up naked next to the last person you texted what would your reaction be?
I’d probably smile awkwardly at her and make her a cup of tea.

Do you spend more time on tumblr or facebook?
tumblr.

Do you ever get paranoid when someone is reading your text messages?
I should. I don’t

When was the last time you cried really hard?
Friday night.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
YES PLEEEEEASE!!!!!!!!!

Do any of your exes miss you?
I don’t know and I don’t give a fuck.

What are you currently hearing right now?
Cat Power

Are all of your friends in relationships?
Most are yes…

You got an essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will it be?
Type. All my essays are required to be typed.

What did you do today?
Watch the Rams get FUCKED by the Patriots. Ate £35 worth of Pizza Hut. Drank a glass of milk. Played guitar. Talked to crush then immediately punched myself in the groin for saying stupid things to her. I’m such a dick.

Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
Mostly.

Do you get good morning texts from anyone?
HAHAHA Oh fuck no!

Which is better: New Years EVE or New Years day?
Neither. I spent the last one ALONE so I don’t give two fucks! About them.

Can you honestly say things are running smooth for you?
Hell. No.

Do either of your parents have tattoos?
Nope.

Are you excited for next year?
Fuck off.

Does your hair have layers?
No. I don’t think so…

Was your last text message from a girl or boy?
Girl.

When was the last time you had a Gatorade?
Never I think aha!

Do you tend to hold grudges?
Oh yes. I have over 80 people blocked on facebook and a further 90 on a kill list.

What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Laying on my sofa groaning.

Your phone is ringing. It’s your ex. What do you say?
“Why are you doing this Lottie?”

If your boyfriend or girlfriend smoked pot, would you care?
Well I don’t fucking have one. And I smoke pot on occasion, so as long as this imaginary girlfriend shared, i wouldn’t care at all.

What color is your underwear?
Black.

What if your boyfriend/ girlfriend went through your cellphone?
I’m single. Hypothetically, I wouldn’t care.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I HIGHLY doubt it. One girl isn’t interested in me AT ALL and another JUST got out of a two year relationship… Plus I’m an ugly cunt so…

When you were little, did you think they’re were monsters under your bed?
No. I thought/ knew I was [and still am] the monster >=]

Do you own any underwear from American Eagle or Aerie?
Nope.

Did you kiss anyone today?
<Endless maniacal laughter >

What are you doing for your next birthday?
Probably working or going to America.

When was the last time you completely broke down?
A few days ago actually. I’m really emotional when I’m lonely. 

How many TRUE friends do you have that you can tell anything to?
6… 

Are you dating the last person you held hands with?
I’M NOT FUCKING DATING ANYONE. I haven’t held hands with someone in a year…

Favorite color out of these three..yellow, red, blue?
RED.

Miss anyone right now?
Yes… She’s not back for a whole week =’[

Who has hurt you the most?
Lottie Moran.

When’s the last time you called your ex?
I don’t remember. I don’t care to.

What if the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted?
I’d call her a liar and walk away.

Do you agree with forgive and forget?
I try to. I haven’t done so however.

Have you ever found someone you really really really liked?:
Ugh. Yes…

Think of your last two kisses, were they with the same person?:
Yes…

Do you think you will kiss someone tomorrow?:
<The Laughter continues>

Is there that one girl that you’ll always have feelings for no matter what?:
NO.

Is there anything in your room that reminds you of the past memories?:
I have very little memories left.

Are you on good or bad terms with the last person you kissed?:
Bad.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J, if so who?:
No.

What were you doing at eight am this morning?:
Trying to sleep.

Have you cuddled with someone you weren’t dating?:
Yeah.

Were you single on Valentine’s Day?:
FUCK OFF WITH THESE OBVIOUS QUESTIONS [I’ve deleted a few that cut too deep]

How’s your hair looking?:
Short.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?:
HAHAH. If they are, it’s ain’t anything good!

Who was the last person you took a picture with?:
I can’t remember.

Where were you at 2pm yesterday?:
At the bus stop.

Who knows a secret about you that no one else does?:
I don’t know.

Can you go a day without music?:
God No.

Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?:
Rachel and my [other] crush. But the latter usually makes me feel uneasy. It’s kinda a sign that I like her more than Rachel. My instant reaction to strong feelings is to hate them and then hate myself intensely….

Are you a morning person or a night person?:
Night.

Are you content with the way things are going?:
Fuck. No.

Ever had a friend steal from you?:
Don’t think so haha.

Ever kissed anyone that smokes cigarettes?:
Yep.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?:
3/4. Maybe 5 if I really need it.

Do you stutter when you get nervous?:
Yes.

Do you have any shirts from vacation / tourist locations?
Yes.

Which would you prefer: a homemade gift, or a store-bought one?
Either. It’s the thought.

Have you ever hugged a complete stranger?
Yeah :3 I’m not a complete ass hole.

When was the last time you were “under the influence”?
Friday.

Do you know anyone who has never read the HP books? Who?
Yes. Everyone. Except me.

Have you ever had a relationship last for a year or longer?
Yes. 3 years, 1 month and 1 day. Everyday of that was a fucking lie!

Has anyone made you cry in the last 14 days?
No. Just feelings.

What do you think your significant other/crush likes the most about you?
I think she admires how genuine I am. But that’s also my most major failing and might be a trun off for her also. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I’m honest and I don’t give a fuck about it and I don’t care who sees it either.

The last argument you had - who was it with, and what was it about?
I don’t know. I don’t remember. I don’t care to.

Do you know anyone named Chris? Tell me about him.
Christopher. He’s cool. He’s Belgian. He didn’t like Skyfall though so I’m going to kill him.

Which word are you most likely to use when greeting someone - ‘hello’, ‘hi’, or ‘hey’?
Hey.

Name someone with blue eyes.
P.

What are your plans for tomorrow?
Early start. Put on a tie, go to the library, finish my James Bond essay then spend the rest of the day in the pub. Go home. Cry.

What’s the closest item to you, that matches the colour of your eyes?
My Phone.

How many people do you know that have green eyes?
No one. I don’t think anyway.

Think back to 4 months ago. were you happier then, or are you happier now? Why?
I don’t remember. Because I drink a lot. Mostly to forget.

Have your parents ever told you stories about the day you were born?
No actually. Never. I don’t really care and I’m not too happy I was born to begin with.

What is something that could make your day better than it is, or just make you feel happier in general?
Getting a good night text from Rachel. Or, if we really want to push the boat out, my crush at my door with an anorak and the Princess Leia gold bikini underneath would go amiss. 

If you could move somewhere else would you?
Yes.

Have you ever made anyone laugh when they were crying?
Yes.

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
Whatever heart I have left I keep hold of it and I will let NO ONE have it. The majority of what was my heart is either burnt or rotting in a bin bag somewhere in Liverpool/ Devizes.

Would you date someone who lived in another state?
I’m in the U.K. but if we were talking Scotland/ England distance, probably.

The last person you texted - Is the person a he or a she? What’s his/hers name?
She. Charlie.

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
Story of my life.

Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out of your life?
Yeah.

Where is the last person you texted at this moment? What do you think he/she will be doing?
Probably in bed. She’d rather drunk haha!

How long have you been using Tumblr?
2 years.

Has the last person you texted ever seen you cry?
Yeah =/.

How old were you when you had your first alcoholic drink?
8. Scottish culture.

What was the last pill you took? 
Fluoxetine.

Do you like to read? 
Not really, no.

Do you carry around purses? 
If I don’t carry around my penis.

What shirt are you wearing today? 
A blue, short sleeved one.

When was the last time you went to an amusement park? 
Years and years ago.

Who did you last make food for? 
ME!

What did you do last weekend? 
Nothing. Wallowed in my own despair.

Name one person you absolutely cannot stand. 
Cory. He’s okay. I just hate him a little bit. Reasons.

What was the best thing to happen to you today? 
HA! 

Does it snow where you live? 
I guess…

Does your birthday come before April Fool’s Day? 
No.

Do you wear a watch regularly? 
No.

Have you had any alcohol in the past 24 hours? 
Yep!

Are there any candles in the room you are in? 
Yep.

Do you believe in luck? 
For other people yes.

Who was the last person to hug you? 
My crush… It was a good hug… The best I’ve ever received FROM ANYONE to be honest… And Now I wish I was dead.

Have you ever gotten bitten or your hair pulled while fooling around? 
I miss those times.

Have you ever kissed someone with braces? 
I think so. I dunno…

When’s the last time you cried? 
Friday. Wasn’t this one of the questions before?

How did you get your last bruise? 
Punching walls.

Are your lips chapped? 
Nope.

What’s your favorite season? 
Winter.

Has it snowed recently? 
No.

What are you listening to? 
Silver Stallion - Cat Power.

Have you ever thought that your life was so bad you wanted to give up? 
I’ve tried to several times.

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? 

Do you know anyone who has messed up your life? 
Yes.

Wearing any jewelry? 
No.

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? 
Yeah.

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time? 
Oh God no! I was pushing it at one before she left me!

Is a best friend, boyfriend/girlfriend, or ex pissing you off at the moment? 
No.

Are you in a good mood right now? 
Fuck no.

Where are you currently? 
My living room

Do you believe in true love? 
Not anymore. Just in a lot of grief and bull shit.

What made you sad today? 
Things.

Is your phone close to you? 
Yes.

What is bothering you right now? 
Things.

What was your last phone conversation about? 
My new job.

Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon? 
Not soon no.

What were you doing at midnight last night? 
I swear I answered this before. Laying on my sofa groaning.

Is anyone interested in you right now? 
Again, I’ve answered this. Probably not. Most definitely not.

Do you believe that you can change for someone? 
Sometimes. Depends on the someone.

Do you get along with girls?
Yes…

Who did you last see in person? 
My house mate Josh.

Do you like surprises? 
Yes.

Do you ever keep arguing when you know you’re wrong? 
Oh yeah!

Did you hug anyone today? 
No…

Are you good at giving directions? 
HAHA. Turn left for 180 degrees!

Rent a movie or go to the movies? 
Go to Pirate Bay.

Do you smile at strangers? 
No…

What woke you up this morning? 
Bad Dreams.

What were you doing at 9:00 pm last night? 
Watching a horror film.

Who is your favorite person to have a serious conversation with? 
I don’t know.

The phone rings, what do you say? 
FECK OFF YA EDGIT!!!!!



I just want a snuggle tonight… =[ No sex. No kissing. Just someone to hold onto and wake up next to.

And maybe make her a cup of tea in the morning. If she want’s one.


Conversation with the redhead just died. Time to bail, have a glass of whiskey and call myself a spineless cunt before I retire for the night.

This is exactly why I’m staying single for the rest of my life. That and the mental instability that no one can really help me get control of…

[EDIT: Also my face, and the fact that any woman will be competing with my affections with MASTER CHIEF and Amanda Seyfried]